futile life

we people are so easily forgotten. Even if we say we live in memories after we die, how long will it be? probably until after everyone who know us gone as well. and then our existence is completely gone... life is such a futility.

how many people have been living on this earth? how many has actually been remembered until now? the ratio might be lower than 1%. so why we try so hard to live?

i have lost respect for them

why should i try so hard to keep up my so-called friendship with them?

there's no point to it.

Acts 19:32

"The assembly was in confusion: Some were shouting one thing, some another. Most of the people did not even know why they were there."

I think this verse summed up the condition of the world nowadays.

love them all, especially Mio!

Where the Wild Things Are

is a stupid movie. 'nuf said.

2012

i just went home from watching 2012 and seriously.. this movie should be called die hard 5... or the luckiest family on earth... they defy science and cheat death.

i give this movie a 5.5/10, mainly to the good special effect, and i'm pretty sure 80% of the movie consists of CG, CG and more CG.

anyway, the main interest of this movie is the topic i discussed with a fren on my way home. I said, if i was there, i'm pretty sure i won't let the people in. It's either us or them.. and he said, i say that only because i'm not in that situation. if i let them die, i lost my humanity. i'll live but i'll be missing something and be reminded to that moment for the rest of my life.

maybe that's true. maybe not. but i really feel strongly that if i was in that ship.. i'll vote no. it's better to see the bigger picture. better safe few than none. sound selfish, sound arrogant, but that's life. if i was put on the other side and they decided not to save me, i'm okay with it. after all, i'm always curious what death is like.

i actually consider what might have happened during Noah's time. when he's finally in the ark, what did he feel about those people left out. maybe they jeered at him before, but soon when the rain doesn't stop, won't they realize they are now in danger? won't they scream at Noah that they are sorry?

Did Noah open the door? no.

in the movie, we now that they are all going to be okay, after all they are the main character. but in real life, there are chances it will go wrong. what would you feel if you let them in, but in the end you and i going to die? will you say "at least i have my humanity intact"?

you just postpone their death, be real! what humanity? sacrifice means something if there's a purpose, there's a goal. if you say you help them to preserve your humanity, aren't u the selfish one? if in the end everyone dies, that's not sacrifice, that's suicide. and suicide is a sin.

you see, Jesus sacrifice means something because he saves us from eternal damnation which is the main goal. that what i see as true "saving humanity"

if i sacrifice myself to let those people in, and i suppose we all saved like in the movie, they are still going to die, sooner or later. and who will save them?

that's why, if it comes down to the ultimate choice, us or them. i think i'll choose us. unless there's a more than likely chance that we can all be saved.

weirdest dream ever

last night was very hot, and i rolling over and over till finally fallen asleep due to tiredness of the rolling.. aniwei i had the weirdest dream in my life.

so my sister is having a mind battle with one psychopath, it's like he demands something and my sister doesn't want to give it to him, in fact she wants to subdue that psychopath by using his craving. All in the while she's being held hostage.

Then somehow, this crazy dude barge into the room, and shot me in the head. With a shotgun. Maybe i'm the first guy who ever seen his head exploded (literally) and still alive. hehehe

then to my disappointment, i become a wandering ghost. I thought there's heaven or hell but zip/nada/nothing. I become a ghost and i exact revenge on that pyscho dude. I gutted him with a singe stroke of knife vertically on his stomach.

Then i realize, if i become a ghost then he can become one as well. With that realisation, i tried to exorcise him by putting salt on the corpse and burn it. Learn this trick from supernatural.

Unfortunately, it's a scam. He becomes a ghost, but somehow looks friendlier.. So i though maybe the purifying process actually change him into a nice ghost.

Wrong. He pull out a knife and tried to stab me. JEEZ! I'm dead dude!

Anyway, after i managed to get that knife away from him, we realise that both of us has died and it's pointless to kill each other. So we decided to become an ally.

And the alarm clock ring. Thus once again, i walk as a human in a hot summer day.