unexpected ending

well, i guess my God is really a good scriptwriter, my life story is full of plot twist, when i thought i've got it all figured out, He proved that i'm really limited in perspective...

A week ago, i finally decided to let go of my struggle. I was trying so hard to stay at melbourne, because i thought this is what He has been telling me. But on other occasions, i felt insecure, maybe i'm just convincing myself that what I want is God's will... and at that time i really afraid of doing so, after all we know what happened to Jonah when he defied God's will...

After struggling hard, and with a lot of things happened, i finally started to let go. At first i don't want to go back cause that means I fail to listen to God's will, and i'm not sure on what to believe anymore. But after my latest plot twist where i lash out to God, and eventually recover and go back to Him, somehow i got a new desire to go back. Well maybe i'm just too tired and homesick.

In any case, last week i said that this will be my last week. If God want me to stay here in Melb, then give me an outside source. I don't want to listening to my inner voice, afraid that i could've been misled. If there's still nothing today, i'll start my pack up and go back to indo.

I said those things because actually i have several options, i've applied for a job and i passed the first stage, so i thought maybe i can score this job. And the other one was a factory job. Actually that job requires physical strength, and with this small stature, i'm afraid that i can't meet their expectation...

Turns out, i didn't get the first job, i was overqualified. And this made me sad and frustrated. I can't get a job because i don't have enough exp, at other job, i'm overqualified, and at a factory job, i don't have the strength...

Then on thursday, i got a phone interview, and the guy asked me to come in today. and long story short, i got the job, today 08/05/09.

Right at the end of the week.

Who would have thought such ending could possibly happen?

Apparently, He does.